yours truly, Ayu(:

2011-05-15T17:33:00.002+08:00

OK, i found a stupid pathetic blogskin fr meanwhile :D LMAO. Like i said, i was reading my post skaly terdelete the template and saved =.= pathetic much? soo.. LOL tmr and wednesday i supposed to be marking day, but i still have to come fr some shit. But i dont think ill have energy tmr so im gonna sleep at home ^^ Went to town with family ytd, went Tekka Market eat Thosei XD which neither me , dell or bro could finish th biggggg paper thosei. -L- then went to bugis street. I spend almost 50bucks on unimportant things. lollol so yeapppp, i'll relink everybody aft my Os ok? better than nothing. k bye ^^

2011-05-07T17:00:00.002+08:00

Hey aliens. I was reading my posts and i accidentally deleted my template soo i went finding blogskins but still, i deleted all my links =.= cb. LOL i have 4 more pprs to go fr mye. But o lvl mtl is this month =.= life's getting better, fyi. much better. but my maths still sucks. ok thats all. thanks :D

2010-12-09T13:37:00.002+08:00

Holidays make me rot. alot. and i think everyone's not updating their blog as well.
but i have nth to do. so here i am. Ive been having so much thoughts and did so manymany thinking. LOL ok, byeeeeee.

2010-10-20T20:17:00.002+08:00

HEY YO, AHHH YO.

exams over. quick update, lazy.
so far failed sciences, and social studies.
this friday got dragon boat till 4pm.
7.30 gonna go watch Matah Ati.
Sunday, I THINK gonna go watch Han's band perform.
Yeahh. ok, toodles.

2010-09-23T08:24:00.002+08:00

Hey, im in school comp lab now. currently preparing for ART END OF YEAR.
I decided to just blog awhile, since my hp spoil and currently no spare,
the comp spoil, home phone got cut off and stuff, jyeah.

school is fine, like usual. I havent even start revising.
yesterday was suckish. D:<>
I feel like killing someone.
My savings are just reaching $200.
I wanna buy a laptop, god.
LOL. OH YAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Rumours about i wrote something about someone in'ma blog is FALSE.
budak yp tu step tahu segale-segale nye.
I'm going Perak during November as my uncle is getting engaged there. (lol)

wookey fkrs, toodles.

2010-08-09T16:12:00.002+08:00

MY BLOG IS DYING. I THINK OFFICIALLY DEAD. but i'll make this quick.

Today's national day. Happy birthday Singapore. (:

Im fasting soon. OMG. I dont know what to do when im not eating -.-"

My Paranoia is back, hauntingly.

Im fat-ter. 0.o

Im bored now.

Im in love with somebody who doesnt love me. SUCK?

Im turning 16 in around, 5 months? (next year)

Im much much a good girl now.

I've given up my bad things. (yknow what i mean)

Im currently surrounded by lesbians and gays*thumbs up.

YEAHH. So is that effiecient?
muax

2010-07-30T21:54:00.003+08:00

Hello, i think blog's dead. =.= nobody tag oso. ): nvm, i'll update for the sake of myself!
Lately has been like, OKAY. Wuhan ppl coming Spore this sunday! =.= AHHH. Tomorrow got tuition. Then sunday need go school. HAHHHHH. tsk. 4th, got outing. 8th, go Night Safari! (:

ok, one stupid thing. BYE. (:

2010-07-09T20:51:00.002+08:00

Seb: Eh, how to do the Gradient working?
Me:*stares. You're asking me?? *points at myself.
Seb:OMG. Im so sorry. *laughs.
Me: Laughs.

The fact that im stupid in Mathematics. And some people can forget that. =.=

M.A:EH! why still here? (just now after school)
Me:Cher, I bored.
M.A:No homework ah?
Me:Got! ALOT! *flips handbook.
M.A:Then? still say bored. Go do.
Me:I nidda time out. =.=

The fact that at times, i'm lazy.

Someone:Why sia?
Me:Must it have a reason?
Someone:Ya lar...
Me:Nope, no reason.
Someone:oi...tell me lar!
Me:lol aint working. aint telling.
Someone:just tell.
Me:BYE. GOODNITE :D
Someone: OI !!

The fact that im lazy and sucks at explaining things.

Look, basically. Im imperfect. Yeahh, i am. Who izzint? tell me. show me. prove to me.

But just now was so freaking horrible that i felt like committing suicide. but i came to my senses. ( Just kidding ) So buhbye. I aint in any good mood.

2010-07-07T21:37:00.002+08:00

Hello pepol. Tryna update so blog wont be dead. uhm, I've not been at my best these few days. Like everything sucks to the core for me. I cried on my way back after watching Eclipse on Sat, and just now I broke into tears when i was on my way back. Well, I look cheerful inda outside, but you dont know any fcks im in. LOL =.= So, uhm. Other than what happened, I think things are getting pretty well. I mean, ya, seriously better. It literally took me two years to actually lose count on my lost. Pathetic much?

This stupid comp lagging also. =.= LOL. uhh, next three weeks there will be Sexuality Talks. Its not that I dont agree but sometimes, i feel like throwing up. I mean, I not Gay or something. These STIs stuff freaks me out. LOL, again. I keep on forgetting going for interview at the Sushi Shop nearby. I need part time workers. I think im getting very old. LOL. I miss BoonLay sometimes. HAHA. Its like I cant be who I am there, when im here in PingYi. I mean, yknw, things are different in the East. Must control. LOL. Those who know me, yknw what i mean *winks.

SCHOOL. I seriously have to say something. CAN I BUCK WITH OVER 3MONTHS? I MEAN, LOOK MY RESULTS, EVRYTHING? HELLO? Cher? Baby? Sis? Mum? LOL. =.=

Ehem *coughs. Yeah, I actually confessed. He knows, i know. Yeah, Im not the crowd labelled : Beautiful or Charming. But I have feelings, that makes me human. (: But, i know this aint getting anywhere. Anyway, Love doesnt expect anything in return, it cant be force *winks.

*stares at clock.

If youre probably wondering what happen to me,
cos i usually dont blog in this kindda way.
Im not in my best, PLUS
Im having PMS.

2010-06-26T14:52:00.002+08:00

Heyy. Holidays has been sucha bore, yknw. like, really. I cant wait for school. I finished up all ma hmwk in just two days, precisely, 5hours. ^^ proud. crisis of panic. hahaha. I've put on weight. 0.o Since i came back from CHINA, ive been eating nonstop like a monster. Again, i say this. XD I keep on looking at the mirror and say "an ugly bitch is staring at me. I hate her" everyday. There goes my self-esteem. XD I mean seriously, i say that everyday cos I think I am. an. ugly. bitch. wakaka. I agree with anyones who agrees with me *thumbs up. (:

Im pathetically screwed. I cant wait to go to school when everyone's worrying bout homeworks. And here i am, putting it aside. Haha, 1st July, I shall book myslef. I really wanna watch Twilight Saga Eclipse. I havent miss any part since the day the movie is out. Anyone wanna watch with me? (: Tehee. Currently chatting with Marcus in FB. And nothing else. Where is everyone? XD Yesterday i think, my heart skipped a beat. I did this thing and i keep getting the word DEATH and FUTURE FRIEND. Soo .. is someone dying or im getting a love soon? or both XD ok taaa.

2010-06-09T23:25:00.002+08:00

*yawns. haaaaaaaah~ Im bored, very very very very very very very very bored. ): I just got back from Geylang. Eat with family at SMP. Then reached home kachingggggggg! here i am. Last Tuesday(8 june). or should I say yesterday, send Naz to airport T1. Wake up at 4. nyeahh~ reahed home around 10, then changed, went out again! to school take report. Stuckk under one block cos raining. around 12 then got to school. Met my DEAREST COUSIN =.= meet arhaizal, went to bedok libraryy. But met damien, when to idk where met those who work at metroo.

This friday, will be gg to airport again, fetch Nazurah. Then next week, 19 and 20 got chalet. :D
haaaaaaaaaaa. okay. im off now. anything beep (:

I feel different about you.
But youre no different from others.

2010-06-05T00:02:00.002+08:00

HEYYAW! :D Im back pepol. HAHA. Im currently transfering pict, to while waiting, lets updatey(:

hmm, overall the trip was, FUN AND ENJOYABLE. Balance of fun, and damn freaking boring :D
the first day, all of us already bonded or somewhat knew each other so it was easy to communicate. The food serving, WELL, muslims ate veggies and rice. AND as for me, chocolate at night plus two cups of hot noodles and A FEW chocolates. ^^ I tried drinking coffee to keep me awake but, FAILURE. I fell asleep faster instead =.= HAHA, i'll keep it short and simple le. takyah exgte bnyk2 ye. (:

so, i came back with FOC present. CHINAA FLUUUUU ):
yea, the throat hurts and the nose. ): saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad right.
i miss the hostel already, its already likka home to me.
I feel like im at a hostel now at singapore house.
learned a lot of things. shall call me and talk about it.
A LOT OF EXCITING THINGS (: byebye.

Loooooooooooooooveeeeeeeee, why do people care so much?

2010-05-20T16:48:00.002+08:00

forget to say something:

I think of u everynight,
and youre like th bedtimestory that puts me to sleep. (;
but do you even havee a thought for me?

2010-05-20T15:19:00.005+08:00

hello! (: haha currently in school. Doing CME project. haah. So, uhm i ONLY failed Maths..17/100. mtl, paper two highest, 63/70 haha standard (: english, okay la boderline. social studies teacher give bonus 1mark. so i pass. ^^ physics, chem. history. art! hahaha ok. i now with syafiqah and atikah. congrats to Atikah and Kelvin! lastlong korang!! :D ok.. in 6 more days going to China. Miss me tak nanty people?. ^^ haha i'll not be schooing from 26-28 cos, im alr in China and i'll be back on 4june. so, to Nazurah and Shakir happy 7months! Umaira and Andrew happy 4months! Syafiqah and Hurairah, happy 6months! (: me? wait long long.

lalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
he's a ennie miennie minnie mo lover hahahaha :D

tata :D

2010-05-14T15:25:00.002+08:00

Hello! (: hahaha, i'm finally back pepol. Monday's my final 2 papers. which is maths ppr two and art. Art is like, straight 3 hours lehhhhhhhh. Gua nanty tdo loh. XD hahaha, oh yeahhh, planning to watch the lastest Shrek, Or The Last Song. On tues or wed. SO, cya around eh ^^ Papers was OKAY. But i screwed chemistry and maths paper one. ): haish. okayokay. tmr' gg the Wuhan Twining briefing. I'll be going to Wuhan, China for ten days! haha. lamer kan. miss me tau. lol. well, i have a certain confession to make. but i dont know where to start. ;D

okeyyyyyyy, ps ppl, dont text me late at night, i wont reply. ok?(: im buzy eating and watching ghost stories (:

thoughts of u, makes me smile. dont u know? ): i wish u knew.

2010-05-02T14:56:00.003+08:00

Hello to 2nd of May. And it marks two years : D I cant even remember th pains, th feelings. I dont remember how i felt cos to me, 2years was long enough. So, Happy two years ! ;DD

Hahahaha. So ,exams coming soon and i've yet to open some books. Im stressed up with Art, Maths and Physics. bleahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Lately, I've been keeping to myself. Sometimes I lose my appitite to eat, sometimes I just wanna puke everything i ate for the day. thats how disgusting i felt. Pardon me, but im not stupid even if im a donkey. I have brains and i use it. Pathetically, have u ever wondered why im in Express Stream? (although i know, that i'll be dropping soon) whatever it is, im still in. & you cant treat me lika 5-yr-old. Expecting me to say yes to your every Candy. - this statements is for more than 3people.

Next, Happy 6months to my dearest. you know who you are (:

Next, Tmr Andrew's 3month. SO LAST LONG :D

Next, Syaf's also.

Next, Ham-MAH.

2010-04-18T17:30:00.002+08:00

I feel like im playing a game.
I feel like i'm the victim.
I feel that i've lost.
Cos you caught my heart.

When will you finally realise what i feel?
): iloveyou, twenty5.

2010-04-18T15:53:00.005+08:00

Hey! HAH, long time never update bloggy. So, hmm. On 16th, Friday, went to Jurong Stadium to just meet the rest. Met Humaidi first, then headed our way. So, I went inside, and apparently, noone notice it saw me =.= like, WTH kan. hahaha. Example one:

Humaidi: EH FAHMI.

Fahmi: EH!

shakes hand* ignores ayu*

Fahmi walks up the stairs.

Ayu: WOI. WEY. EXCUSE ME.*grins.

FAHMI: EHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! *shock face.

=.= So yeahh. Many didnt notice me, I also dont know why. Then met Faiz, he ajak go up. Then sat with blue house since i wanted to blend in ^^ With Mimiee, Firman and all those people. Then saw Romeo! :D I missed him alt uh. HAHAH. As irritating. as ever eh we. LOL, okay. enuf about that. ^^

Uhm, exam's nearing and i cant even stuck atleast 5 maths formula in my brain =.= bleahhh le. hahaha! so, must study SMART from now and will be less playing comp. Heh (:

Another thing, I'll be going to Wuhan, China for 10 days from 26May to 4June. :D So, dont forget to miss me ehh. LOL.

2010-03-30T08:45:00.005+08:00

Heyy there guys. ^^ this blog is pathetically dead. =.= dusty nak maz aye. Hahah anyway, im currently doing the e-learning thingy. hahah! peh semgt . Hmm . many things had happened since th last time i blogged. MANY ^^ So, where should I start? .

Camp(3-5 March): Was fun as expected. Never actually knew 301 could be soo, hyper. XD

Sports day(10march):one word, HAH. kay next.

Cross-country(26 March): *Ehem. Heh. uhm, I couldnt run, fullstop. I had terrible stomach cramp and pain. heh. so, i could've done better. (atw, perut bunyi-bunyi) XD

That's th only thing i could remember. STM laa katekan. Hmm, life has been funny and amusing these days (finally not indicating life is shit) like, seriously. My days are filled up with laughters and amusements. hee. like th way atikah smell people, th way diana stare, th way damien is annoying ^^, th way i find dorothea friendly(haha), th way i find new routes to go home, th way me and syaf was so hyper at camp: alek teros senyap. good girls namenyer tu, bukan ape.. :D th way how 301 could communicate so well at camp, th way kelvin is shit, andrew is shitter. th way i finally get on track. ^^ HAHAA, now these are just jokes kayy, takmu take it to th heart. heheh. OWH! did i freaking mention i have to attend the Morning Fitness Programme? =.= WTH, WTF.

I was like " CHER! I FAT AH? WHY MUST GO ONE!! *irritating voice.

then Mdm Khor was like *starring up and down. I dont think you fat lah. you underweight.

M: Cher, they blind ah cher! i average what =.= what they wann

MK: Maybe you ran fast? They want train you or maybe you are too fast.

M:What kind of conclusion is that ?!

You see now, so. Im not overweight or underweight so what? =.= im pathetically 7kg to becoming overweight and 5kg to becoming underweight. (ignore me) HMPH! Geraaaam jeeee. hmph.

owh yahh(geram seminute je), friday is 2nd of april *eyebrow upup. wahhhhhhh! XD lamer lamer, bgus bgus. HAHAHAAH. And seb's bdayy's on 1st april. Ytd had Eng Oral, was OKEYH. haha! k, muax.

2010-02-28T22:10:00.002+08:00

Oh hello :D Well, im feeling much frankly better now. I feel, BETTER :D Haha, okeyhokeyh. Uhm, had tiring weekends as I went for rewang and stuffs le =.=" & Yay, this week is IP Weeeeek! I'll be away for Camp to Pulau Ubin from 3rd - 5th March. SO, if you have anything to tell me, please tell before 3rd March 7am. (: Hehehh! okeyh, uhm well. Should I write something else?

On th 23rd, Feb.
I finally got th truth. Which as expected.

Good Side Of Me:
I understand how you feel, I've felt what you felt.
But the lest you could do, was to tell me the truth,
if you really ever did love me.
I appreciate those times though,
I hope you wont forget what we've been through.
What we said to each other.
And if I move on,
I wont forget you.

Bad Side Of Me:
Fakyo, Fakyo, Fakyo.
You hurt me so deeply.
So much that I think Sorry wont cure.
You only think about your own selfishness.
& never think what your reaction would do to others.
I hate you so much!
So much I dont even see you again,
not even want to hear a single fking thing about you.
I wont hestitate to move on at all.
Cos staying is just useless, useless.
Idiot =.=" you and your excuses.

Overall, i think he, dont deserve to be loved. I should move on and stop crying over split milk. Cos i've been hurt enuf. yeahhh, im strong now. Accept whatever fact that comes along the way, and accept well. And you'll be fine ^^ I've not interacting well with Hanaffi & Izahan these days. We dont even talk 0.o that explains. ^^ So, okeyh. I shall end my words here.

As for you,
Thankyou. & goodbye.
(im sure these doesnt hurt you ,
i bet you are grinning reading this.)
Just in case you dont know what grinning is,
its: smiliomg like hell.

k, muax buhbye. (:

Sarang Hae! I love you ! Wo Ai Niee!!

2010-02-20T00:05:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone ! Im zyzychaK ! Hidayu's FAV GIRL ! Get meehh' biatch, fav girl.
So so so , my point here is dont you dare upset her!! GRR !!! *POKES NOSE*
Okay so, lets just not let any mental cells act here. Well, unfortunately, Hidayu has been having some very lunatic insticts hanging from all sorts of places, thanks to SOMEONE *coughcough*

& Btw, why isnt Facebook co-operating here? Eyeee -.- Okok so, yah. Tak tau ape nk cakap lagi. Take care peeople, drop by my blog okay (:

2010-02-19T23:29:00.002+08:00

Owhkey. HELLO. uhm firstly, I would want to describe how tragic today was =.= uhmmmm, went to skool alone cos Naz was TIRED. Then in skool, during reading period, i found out i got mental problem. Like seriously *LOL . My class won the total defence thingy; i dont care. I skipped CCA as i was SICK. Went home, I vent my anger on the sidewalk like an escape mental patient =.= like seiously * LOL. THEN, around 6plus, Aunty barged into th room and shooed us out to do something. We were from Ubi, to Bedok inter, then take MRT to Paya Lebar for god knows what. and we're freaking tired. uhmmm* LOL.

This is a conversation between me and naz.

NAZ: Well _ _ _, has the Brain and the Looks. Who wouldnt want him?

AYU: *silence. But does he have the Heart? * eyebrow upup

NAZ: * Speechless. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

*LOL. You know what. I dont care kay I dont care. This whole thingy thingy is making me insane! cmon now. No? *ghdyetgdheb. NO? Omfg, time is flying by sooo fast. Or izzit me? okey. Guess what. You haywired me idiot. I miss you fucking lot and this is happening to me. right? & what youre doing THERE? just munching on crackers and watching movie somewhere with another idiot. You didnt even bother to ask how am i or something. No? LOL while im here wondering have you eaten or not, are u okey, are u fine, are u sick, are u safe, what happened to u lately, have u grown(?), are coping with studies, hows ur DAYS have been. SO, do you still care? ):

2010-02-12T23:04:00.002+08:00

Yo people. HAH. So, uhmmmmm. Skool's been terribly crucial this week. I should admit. I've been having sugar rushh everynow and then due to too much consumption of chocolate and peachtea =.= CNY celebration was pathetically boring except fr th malaydance performance. I kindda enjoy it. HAH. Well, I've got 4days to take my mind off from skool, i guess. Ihsan txtd me up whether i want to lek2 tmr (?). And on Valentines Day I'll be home while Naz most probably will be going out ;DD sedih cite. HAHAHA. Then on Monday gg out with Shema, Khalisah thy all. Followed by Tuesday, gg out with Faiz thy all *i hope so nothing gets in our way* uhmm, what else? errr, uhm. hmmk. Well, no else should I talk about? uhm, bleahh. okay.

2010-02-05T19:28:00.003+08:00

Oh today is simply a disaster somehow. Hmm, so. School carried on as usual. After school, met Naz, Shamo & Prav. Walked to Inter with Arhaizal. Then go Mc eat. It was fun hanging out with them though Lol =.= So, After that went to Town. Met Fam and yah. So, uhm. Came back, Open the bedroom door, and smell shit ^^ CAT SHIT. Looked around, didnt saw anyth; it was on the bed =.= and my precious favourite pillow =.= ahhahhh * Crys. Oh okeyh, that's shit enuf for me. Clean the bed, pillow and stuffs. pfft =.= And now I just visited a web, I read something and, Im cursing every single thing im doing in the Comp. This is crucial. Yah so, I texted Faiz Farid and asked whether we should gather and mit up on 13th. Uhm, yahh. Like that lorr =.=

PS:

Simple.
You toyed with my feelings, Fakyo.

2010-02-03T19:14:00.003+08:00

Ohkeyh, so. Im currently bored now. Hahas, some pictures of CIP thingy just now. Decorating class for CNY. bleahhh =.= Hmm, school planned good interesting stuffs this yr, Sec3 camp to Pulau Ubin, Malay Trip to Jogya(idk what it is called, somewhere in Indonesia) XD HAHAHA. okay, this is crappy. ^^

When a gunting drops, cover your most fragile part XD

This is what happens when you make someone whom broke his leg gets unhappy: they unwrapped the bandage XD

2010-02-01T16:53:00.003+08:00

"Hello, please recylce me. THANKYOU. HEHE!"

Obviously, I was superduper bored at the end of the lesson waiting for recess. So, I did this. ^^ Hahas Diana didnt attend skool today so yahh. Another pathetic lame day for me i guess. Along the way to Art class, I help comforting Andrew to hop hop and hop! even though he sprained his leg. HAHAHA evil kan? ^^ Physics lesson was fun, right? XD talked about stuffs that should not be talked about.

"yes, one very good example. hidayu's answer is WRONG." *teacher grins.

Heh hehs. Well, I thought it was the correct answer. But i Repharse it wrongly. Anw, laughed my ass off with Andrew, Kelvin & Gayatri. Inilah, mase-mase TERhyper. XD Somesort of walked home with Arhaizal. =.= but went separate ways somewhere le =.= He very funny le =.= I dont know what else to say le =.= *grins. Then Fadil Bestf called me and talked kejapp. Cos my ppd low and cant talk longlong. I'll be calling him again later on though. HAHA i've been neglecting my bestfs huh? Evil cruel me. LOL =.=

Oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh, its 1February~ you know that i know that we all know that some people dont know what it means XD Also,

Happy 3rdMonth Anniversary to my Dearest **** HAH HAH HAH =.=

Crucial XD uhm, Andandand to Ashaa also (: Hahas okeyh then. wouldnt want to carry on my crap. Untill then babys. ^^

2010-01-30T17:58:00.004+08:00

Heyyy. so, this computer is making me go insanee =.= Anw, went for Poetry Appreciation just now & went home halfway for some reasons. It was so damn boring. =.= regretted waking up early in th morning for it. Basically, I should have went out with my Dearest instead, rindu a lot. hmm, so. I was teaching Fauzley how to draw a BIRD.

*one straight line and two semi circle* XD

Hahas so yeahhh. Art student's drawing laa katekan eh! Yesterday plak, reached home around 5. Then wrestled with Naz and I fell off the bed so tragically. 0.o baskeet betol lah. Th oth dayy, otp with kieky ;DD talked about what's happening to life and stuffs. Im gald shes doing fineee. hahas! ohhh! hehs.

Supposely, Im doing PERFECTLY/AWESOME now.

I guess.

Sometimes in life, you just have to let go

the things you love.

Eventhough it's hard,

youve gotta keep on trying. ;DD

To someone out there, somewhere. thankyou fr showing me care, eventhough its fr short period of time. Eventhough we ended up(like this), I appreciate you. I trust you & I love you :DD Takecare.

*oh yes! today is offically 1yr aft my mum's D. ):

2010-01-28T19:28:00.002+08:00

I had just finish doing my art research. So, yeahhhh. Basically, Im not in a very hyper/active stage (whatever you call it) anymore for now or for th time being. ): Tsk3. You see, everytime i wanted to give it a chance, the chance just fly off. Im sick & tired of all these repeating over and over again D:

2010-01-26T16:50:00.002+08:00

I apologise for any inconvience caused by my blog template. I very the lazy tukar here tukar there again. :D soooooo, my birthday was funn BUT not as enjoyable as last year's. haha, still remember. Yesterday kena serbu dgn Hanaffi and rakan rakan nya :D i ended up covered with milk lah, water and powder lah. lucky no eggs o.0 Naz has lately been very active and insanee. Keep on making me wanna laugh. haha! Hmm. About skool today, I was crucially damnn quite when i reached skool, got active back aft recess. Cos, i realise crying/being upset izzint doing me anyyyy gooood. HAHAHA. useless, pointless =.= aft skool Arhaizal was maki-ing me ): hah! idiot betol. hahaha, but im absolutely fine now! seee, im smiling. ;DD haha, currently chatting with Atikah Dearest and I dont know what to do. =.= later gg out to visit Grandpa at hosp. sooooo, okay until then. ^^

I wanna tell you that whatever youre about to do,
I'll go with the flowwwwwwwww.
Ive been through this a million times,
and i wouldnt want to end up on the verge of breaking down,
AGAIN. so, thankyou fr th mmrs just in case EH (:
AND, you dont give deadlines to decide whether u love someone or not ;DD

2010-01-23T19:29:00.003+08:00

First of all, Happy Birthday to Syaqila (:

So, today's th 23. HAHA. Just now went to Hanzy's house to take my stuffs and Ifi was there. Sat awhile to chat. I was so amazed wif Ifi's hand 0.0 "fuyoh-ing" you knoowwwwww. haha. Then headed to inter to take 854. Then HZ texted me up and said he's gonna treat me on monday ^^ yay. lols. Hmm, ytd talked to Mira otp. I missed her a lot yeah so. Thats reasonable kan? haha. Hmm. what else should i say? oh yes, my bloggie is dead. nobody's tagging. nobody's reading *krickkrick. I. dont. care =.= Well, i might be going out tomorrow, to somewhere. (whatagreatplacetogoonmybirthday) Faeez also called me up to go out to treat me but last minute, who is prepared? XD Hmm what else? My hp has got cracks all over(isgonnadiesoon).
okeyh. thats all. upadte SOON ;D

Iloveyousomuch, ;D

2010-01-15T16:19:00.002+08:00

My oh My.
its been ages since I've updated, didn't I? (: So ,i was planning on change everything in my blog but i couldnt find any good-looking ones ^^ Yes, its a brand new year. & on every book I study, there's "O'Level" in it =.= hahahaha. wth. A lot of things happened, i mean it, A LOT. its unbearable sometimes when i think about it. but now everything's fine( i guess) or shall i say things are gg to be okay (: hehheh. So, im sec3 now and yes, i manage to get promoted even though i got two f9s o.0
haha cheers for me once again ^^ LOL.

Okay, one basic thing that everyone needs
to know is that life's awesomely boring for me nowadays.
so yeah, 24 January is cmg, & i'll be turning 15. (:

2009-10-19T14:30:00.002+08:00

Hello. i just left another stuckedup dick XD well, forget it.
hahas well i miss nazyzy. & iztShahril, & Kieky.
easy to say, i miss everyonee(": bleahhhh. kay.

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2009-09-27T16:17:00.003+08:00

OUHKAYYYYYYY. I'll make this simple. Exams coming and yet, ive not open any single book. -.-" walao wey. hahaha. so, its my fault aye. hmmmm, So! :D on the 2nd, 17months aye? 17months yay! Mwahahaha. Well, eventually i wouldnt care about that date anymore. as of now, not yet laaa kans. so, my cuzzie's right. " you should give someone a bloody chance! you said what goes around comes around, then dont ya think guys wont give ya a chance too?" i like, tercenggang jap siaaaaaaa. XD hahaha. i stare2 at the wall trying to figure out what to do yesterday.. hmphs! so what bloody hell should i bloody do? XD let's face fact number one, i somehow of crushing on someone & he doesnt know, he doesnt want to know, he wouldnt want know. and lastly, i KNOW that he treat me as friends & not more. fact number two XD , my heart is still hidden somewhere in someone's closet. so, i dont feel anything. fact number 3, im amazingly giving someone a chance. fact number 4, ____ ______ ): figure out. so, lets end off here. those of you whom read this and yet to understand, i dont blame you, this is what people with low IQ writes :D tata.

2009-09-19T16:26:00.002+08:00

YAY ! :D this blogger is finally pathetically working. hahahas. Okay, so today's the last day of puasa. like, what, what. So, I would like to wish all Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Dan Batin :D i hope to those whom i once make mistakes to, forgive me. Let the bygones be bygones aye? So, yesterday i was waken by my sister's evil laugh when i was sleeping. infant betul. :D she told me something i didnt expect to hear! nyehahahaha. like what? XD So, i woke up very early today.. like 8plus? then help my aunty cook raya dishes. okay2.. gtg now.

Lastly, fr tmr, to my dearest Hafeez, happy 14th birthday la okay. I still owe you a pencil box since last year. nyehahahaha XD love you manymany. and to aidil pingyi too. happy birthday.

okay, chaos (:

2009-09-12T15:59:00.000+08:00

Is something wrong with Blogger or what? Or izzit the internet? What izzit? :D So, time terbang so fast aye. Pfft! & I havent yet finish any homework. -.-" Walao wey. Hahaha. Okay, gtg. but hey, I would like to wish my sister, Arni Nurdellah, A very happy 13th birthday! :D May all your wonderful wishes come true. Jangan notty notty and please, grow taller! :D byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ^^

2009-09-06T18:21:00.000+08:00

So Hello :D

Tmrw will be gg to skool. -.-" Like, walao wey. Got Maths Class.

So Goodbye :D

2009-09-05T18:01:00.000+08:00

Hello World :D So, today's like what? like what? So boring and lifeless. I failed my maths common test drastically. like what? 8/100 0.o who can beat that? XD mwahahahaha. the rest was quite fine i guess. School been emotionally hurtful and physically great :D Hmm, met few more great friends, i guess. Expect that kena lecture by izahan about something. but what he said quite true uh eh. walao wey. feel so guilty. So anyway2. Ive been fasting full so far. *applause bukan senang okay. XD Nyehahahahaha. Haisakkk. Hmph! Yesterday Izahan was laughing fr no reason in the bus and Alif Haiqal, you are so stupid fr not ON-ing your bluetooth all along. wait mcm nak rak tauuwwwwww. walao weyyy u. HEH. so, contacted Mira, Faiz Jbz, Hafeez and Hazyk back. Like, finally. okay, im off :D

PS: to all those taking N levels, goodluck yeah yall. ^^

2009-08-30T14:39:00.000+08:00

So, Mum, brother, Daddy is out. & me with beloved sis is stuckkkk at home. with our hungry stomach :D anyway, i failed drastically for maths. 1/30 0.o how bad is that? aiyoooooo. School has been physically and emotionally GREAT :D hehehehehehehheheheh. okay, met few new frens and always kena bully by dearest Izahan. sec1 somemoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ i've been close with Hanaffi they all i guess? most pathetic is that, we have to rush just to take one idiotic bus :DD Like got Michael Jackson inside. XD So, im off.

PS:my rainboww is appearing.<3

2009-08-23T18:39:00.001+08:00

Fasting feels good. okay, byeeeeee~ :D

2009-07-27T17:03:00.002+08:00

Hello. mwahahaha. juz wanted to post so blog wont be dead. skool has been better nowadays.. mwahahahahahaha. heh XD okay, except that alif haiqal majok with me bcos i accidentally maki him. hahaha. Anyway, i woke up late this morning. So rushed. And took the PYSS shuttle bus. And accidentally sat beside HYDIR ANUGERAH. XD mwahahaha. but i didnt talk. whats the big deal if i sit beside him? -.-" anwway, good luck to him for the finals and congrats and ALL THE BEST :D

2009-07-23T09:04:00.002+08:00

Currently in comp lab now.. doing History thingy. and my school is like celebrating Racial Harmony day so im wearing my baju kurong. like, just wear ah. my whole class asked me too. wahhhh.. okay, bye(: just wanted to update lahhhhhhhh. I'll relink everybody soon kay. I lazy ah now.. hehe :)

PS:crushcrushcrush.

i want my 'life' back.

2009-07-19T19:52:00.003+08:00

well, its been a long time since i updatedd. i've been 'busy' moving to ubi and moving things here and there. anyway, about school and stuffs. Im in Ping yi now and i somehow hate it. my class like not kecoh at all. -.-" and i dont have much friends. nvm, its still early huh? i'll soon have more friends. and yeah. i miss being a boonlayian the first day i step in pyss. i miss having to make noises and talk about you know that i know that we all know 'stuffs' during maths lessons. i miss having to irritate Mr Teo abt maths and always msg-ing during his classes. i miss going home and putting my bag down and say, "no, i do not have ANY homework,". haiyah.. what a life mann. I wished i was back there. bleahhhhhhhhh.. i miss shouting and runnig here and there to catch hafeez bcos he took my wallet. okay. Recess time, i will sit down with hanaffi and friends. he's like my cousin's cousin. somehow related lah. Im currently in bedok, atok's house. so, gtg aite. i wish to see my friends soon ):

PS:ihatethatguy.

This is IT.

2009-07-04T13:06:00.002+08:00

I will be attending new school from next week onwards. ): what a pity that class photo is nxt week and i cant be there. anyway, Thx to everyone for your tears, laughters, letters, farewell gifts and last but not least, your hugs. (: i appreciated every single one of you. Im sorry if I have done any wrong towards anyone of you out there. I just dont have control of myself back then. I wanted to post pictures instead of writting but my computer is sick, terribly sick. or izzit blogger? okay, I'll post it some other time. Anyway, to these superb people that were there for me, to cheer me up when im down, and being okay with my attitude, ILYSM. you know who you are that I dont have to say. okay, i gtg now but before that:
to someone, the person i hurt most, im sorry abt the past. im sorry i was being sucha bitch. I sorry I didnt let you had a life of your own. Im sorry bcos i was always there to ruin everything you planned. Im sorry i didnt give you what you want. I was stupid to do what I do. But now, I hope you forgive me bcos i want to let go of the past. I want you to be happy. I want you to smile, I want to hear your laughters. All these while, the things you didnt know, let it go. Bcos im the only onw who knows what's inside my heart that cant seem to come out. once again, im sorry. ilysm, fren. (:

PS:Pingyi secondary school, (:

2009-06-28T16:51:00.000+08:00

Hello, just updating. Tmr sch will be opening and im excited, i think. why lah dont have H1N1 extension? hahaha, anw, im in love with Gaara. That Naruto thingy thingy. So HOT MAN! XD Hotter than D. hahahahahahahahahahaha,. hot hot hot. GAARA OF THE SAND. i wished i was a cartoon and i could meet him. haha, k, im offf. urgent matters(:

2009-06-21T14:32:00.003+08:00

back from book launch nite

im okay with being alone, i seriously dont mind. Cos' you thought me how to live life the hard way. I didnt know such good friends like you could be sucha B*tch. you are a betrayer, you are a backstabber and all you do is to lie. I thought i could trust you, but you proved me wrong. Just so you know, leaving a friend for a bitch is insane, taking a guy away from your friend is good, bcos you are a bitch, what else you do? right? and stop flattering people with your oh-so-wonderful vocabulary bcos your brain is full of shit. you dont care or think about others, all your think is about yourself, what is important to you is yourself, selfish. open here, open there, open everywhere. why not open your panties also?

okay..i just love doing that. XD okay la, i wrote that just to write it. BUT, if someone out there TERASE, good la. terase teros. hahahaha, okay, im JOKING. okay okay okay. take care.

2009-06-20T16:06:00.003+08:00

I went out with family to East Coast on last Saturday, was quite fun but i didnt get enough sleep. bcos i was awaken by a bunch of mats and minahs fighting, i mean like sparing. like okay, woke up at 2am and went to the toilet wit myrul and wan. hahahaha, then sleep again bla bla bla bla. Damai secondary finally replied, they asked us to fax our MYE results to them, hopefully they will take me in, and my sister. I cant possibly be flying from ubi, all the way to boonlay. penat siak. to mifdhal and hafeez, i wont forget u guys la. mepek aje. stupid. XD hahahaha. kay, i read something wonderful.

"i'll never let him go."
-"but maybe it's time to let go"
"if there is this person, hanging on a cliff and you had hold of him; if you were his only chance, would you let go? would you let him fall?"

PS: if my sister took that from me, i kick her s.

2009-06-09T13:00:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the class bbq outing and i can very well say it was 50 50 okay lah. I heard they lost MORE THAN HALF OF THE MONEY and the most important thing is, the food is not enough. -.-" so anyway, i met the guys at the bustop two blocks from my home and we took 966. in the bus, Faiz kept on talking to me -.-" banyak betol cite budak ni. haha, and we rent bicycles as soon as we reached. Miffy, Izt, Faiz and nas rented the bicycle that two people can ride one. XDthen we rideride. I exchange with faiz and sat behind nas. bcos faiz was scared. XD haha. Then, here comes the best part. Nas was heading for this track, and this stupid faiz went to the same direction and stood there looking at us. kaboom! and we fell XD and ive got 3 injuries on me while they are just fine. what a drag man. hahaha. i help bbq the foods and ate it all. went to the sea, push here push there. play soccer, and the malay guys lost to the chinese again, just like last year. headed home at about, 8 pm? with hafeez and faiz and still they talk alot until the whole bus could hear. hahahahaha. okay. gtg. im going out. bye.

2009-06-05T16:16:00.001+08:00

i loveeeeeeeeeee this picture cos Faiz look stupid. XD

hahaha, okay okay okay. (: wah, im so bored now. and i cant reply people's mgses cos my ppd has 0 balance. My mum will top up for me this sunday. bleah. what a dragggggg. hahahaha. what a drag. what a drag. what a drag. okay, im off. (:

2009-06-03T16:25:00.003+08:00

I couldnt sleep last night. I kept on tossing and tossing and it was soo damn hot lah. -.-" anw, i cant wait for 8june's outing. bleah, finally can go out wiff friends. Oh yeah, someone got stresssedd out when he met my mum. my sis kate his face cramp. XD hahahaha, itu la, dont play play when it comes to my mum(: i skipped Maths lesson for three times now. haiyah, ok, im sleepy~ -.-"

ps:wooooooo waaaaaaaa kepa ? XD

2009-06-02T16:22:00.001+08:00

Im done, im going out, bye. i see you people on 8june's bbq party. bye(:

2009-05-30T17:24:00.005+08:00

it's been 12345678907876542984 days since i updated(: haha. on thursday i skipped skool in the morning cos' i was d*mn lazy. went to skool for sungei buloh at 2pm, had fun, laughters and so. im just updating these photos. i'll upload more soon. (: i'll be seacrhing for a skool near bedok area. you know what i mean. (:

2009-05-17T15:56:00.000+08:00

Just to say, im working on my blog. sorry eh kalau pape tak kene. XD

dusty./

2009-05-16T14:23:00.002+08:00

I just wanted to update. so that my blog wouldn't be dead. Im happy to finally see my friends smile like weird people :D Heh heh heh. paham paham aje laaaa (: lastlong okay. ;) anyways, two more paper and im freeeeeee. Im pretty sure i'll be falling my maths, like always. heh. oh yeah, i'll be moving out in June and i guess i'll work during June Holidays too. Well, I planned to. krick -.-" My cousin has been staying for some reason. hehhhhh. I'll upload pictures SOON. I just lazy lately to even touch the comp. I have something to post about but , anyway, nantok ah. bye ~

TWOMAY<

2009-05-03T16:16:00.002+08:00

"Yesterday was 2 May or should I say 2nd of May? Anyway, it eventually marks it all; 1 year.
1 year of bullshits, 1 year of heartbreaking events, 1 year of everything. I couldn't sleep at night, i kept on tossing and turning on the bed. I kept on thinking about what happen 365 days ago. I cant help but to forget, its impossible for me, as i've never, ever in my whole life, felt that much of pain before. And now, i keep on remembering it everywhere i go."

Krickkrickkrick.

hahahhaha, that was what im suppose to say if i were still stupid. -.-" to that ohso________ , say all that you please, cos right, you were once in my place. psst, actually, frankly its not to anyone. hahahaha XD okay, i wanna take a nap bye :"D

PS:TWOMAYTWOMAYTWOMAY.

2009-04-14T11:11:00.003+08:00

The previous post is lame ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh -.-" wahhhhhhhhhhhh, lately ive been so engrossed talking about Judgement Day/Death. khiamat? whatever it is, well yes, since i read the article about the solar storm hitting Earth, mcm takot gitu kan. I went to Era's house ytd, and along the way, satu satu tarok muke takot. hahahaha! Efa face paleng funny. :D we ate, laugh and stuff. I guess, I most had fun with my primary mates(: Adila, Farhana and Raihana; nonetheless, some secondary mates too(: Era gave me some books to read on. but unfortunately, i forgot to bring it home. I strolled myself to the Lakeside MRT. I guess I'll have to learn how to manage my anger from now on, or take some anger management class from Izzat :D okay, -.-"

i read a book yesterday that says, okay, nanty nanty aje lah ehk. the class just ended, i think.

PS: 18 more days,

The day after tomorrow.

2009-03-31T11:04:00.003+08:00

I've deleted all my previous post since i dont want to read or even take a look at it anymore. I dont want to remember anything that was stated here ,as these memorises kept pulling me back from moving on. Too much has happened and it just makes me weaker each day. "Friends" are no longer found in my dictionary as all "Friends" are just useless. One by one ,they just walk away without noticing that you were around. I know that everyone is different, each of us has our own opinion ,each of us is brought up differently ,each of us has different state of mind. I'm just speechless. This whole thing is getting to far beyond. The ones that were there for me, through night and day, left me with a blink of an eye. The ones who listened to my crys ,dont even care anymore.
Whats left in this world? say me bitch ,say me whatever you want ; you are not any better .

ps:The day after Tomorrow, remember. (':